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10 more days or so to 2006
need to start clearin up my life
throw out all the junk
time to make big things happen
first step i tried to do as stupid as it sounds
was to delete all the mushy bullshyte from my hotmail
i checked all the mails but i couldnt bring myself to hit delete
i js kept on readin and readin and thinkin
like, what the hell was i doin? why did i believe?
romeo start writin me again, askin me this and tt
i can forget what you did mothafuckadog, but i kant forget you
mayb you was a fuck tt i had actually had abit of feelin fo
yeah you could fuck somebody and leave the next mornin
but when got feelins fo tt fool, its hard

movin on

things i need to do in the next year

1. sort things out wid my family fo real
2. sort things out wid lems (what was tt my resolution since 2001?)
3. find a better job or go to school
4. learn japanese
5. stop hurtin myself [omg, i teringat fana cakap 'stop hurtin me']
6. stop main cap 'a'  [hahahaha]

i kant wait to meet lems today, he's cming back wid lots of gifts!
i kant wait to hug and smell him..huhuhuhhuu.. i miss him so much
i love him i love him i love him

ok lunch break!

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i was at work js now;
and this middle-aged man came to my counter
while handlin his transaction;
he js stared at me

and when i finally looked up;
this was what he said...

' i see somethin in you, somethin bright and pure...'
'your face is very radiant, you are glowing...'
'i see that you have a good spirit and luck is everywhere you go'
'you will be very successful in life, js wait and see.'

then he left

this isnt the first time babe
many a times customers have read my palm;
studied my facial features...
and everyone always says..

luck, luck, luck..your very lucky

now you tell me where the fuck is the luck!!